confession no. 3

sometimes i try to be hipster.  see below.

• (standing in front of my dresser) does this death cab for cutie concert t or this feed my starving children volunteer t say i'm more hipster?

• to buy a pair of fake glasses at urban or not to?

• i really want to wear my beachy, cali hoodie again, but wait i just wore that three days ago to go to the hipster coffeehouse.

• name dropping obscure band names with weird songs i'm not even sure i really like.

tunesday: angus and julia stone

She said "hello mister, please to meet ya"
I wanna hold her, I wanna kiss her
She smelled of daisies, she drives me crazy

monday quote

“Maybe there’s something you’re afraid to say, or someone you’re afraid to love, or somewhere you’re afraid to go. It’s gonna hurt. It’s gonna hurt because it matters.”

—	John Green

truly blessed

Today was an incredibly perfect day. The perfect combination of family and friends that are practically family. I'm truly blessed to have such positive people in my life that love and support me. I'm forever grateful.  Today was one of those "cherish the simple things in life" kind of days. A hug here and there, a nap with the windows open, the perfect pandora shuffle, comfort food, a smile on a loved ones face, a glance, a gaze, a pile of letters to go out in tomorrow's mail, being tucked into bed, a little kid's laugh.  I love my life and the people I get to share it with. They make it all the more complete and for that I am thankful.  Sweet dreams blog land. 

no. 11 get a record player

santa brought me a record player for christmas and since then i have been playing dreamy albums on vinyl both old and new.  i love spinning frank sinatra and lighting candles in my room whilst writing letters at my desk or just lying in bed looking at the ceiling. 

i also discovered a local music shop in town with tons of vinyl and cds.  i could spend hours just browsing there.  picked up the black keys on vinyl and a neon indian LP.

crossing off the list.

right now

i'm always trying to plan my life ahead of time.  working out possible outcomes before they actually happen and when they are completely out of my control.  i push people away far too often and only to save myself from hurt whilst hurting myself in the process.  if i'm happy, what more do i need?  if the people in my life make me happy, why should i change that?  here's to living for right now, being present right now and being happy right now no matter what tomorrow or 3 months from now could bring.  being comfortable is a good thing. 

thursday quote

“The sign of a beautiful person is that he always sees beauty in others.”

—	Omar Suleiman

tunesday: rocco deluca and the burden

swooooooooooooooooooooooooooon

monday quote

being deeply loved by someone

gives you strength

while loving someone deeply

gives you courage.

lao tzu

thursday quote

"The man is richest whose pleasures are the cheapest."
— Henry David Thoreau

10 good things (no particular order)

1. peanut m&ms
2. new playlists
3. indiana university basketball
4. cute guys lifting weights
5. MAIL...always good
6. indian food
7. adult mentors/friends
8. colored pens (makes studying more bearable)
9. slippers
10. drinking water

 bonus: twitter

happy valentine's day?

red paper scraps scattered on a cluttered desk.  piles of paper, cards and stamps.  paper hearts all around.  while it's a blessing to be loved and to love so many at the same time love hurts.  it comes and goes.  what is forever love?  does it truly exist?  the word love gets tossed around all too easily sometimes and other times not nearly enough.  you should tell the people you love that you love them and remind them daily of what they mean to you.  but why is it that those you love can make you hurt just the same?  love takes hold of you.  it grips and twists your insides in a tangle of confusion.  friends you love grow further out of reach and sometimes i wonder where it when wrong and why.  love makes you fall when you don't want to let yourself feel too much...to save yourself from the hurt.  real love hurts.  real love makes your eyes well up with tears whether they are happy or sad.

then there is puppy love...the love that makes you giddy at the thought...make you smile with intrigue and curiosity.  puppy love can't hurt cause you don't know what you really feel...or at least not just yet.

tunesday: sia

monday quote

“I want a life that sizzles and pops and makes me laugh out loud. And I don’t want to get to the end, or to tomorrow, even, and realize that my life is a collection of meetings and pop cans and errands and receipts and dirty dishes. I want to eat cold tangerines and sing out loud in the car with the windows open and wear pink shoes and stay up all night laughing and paint my walls the exact color of the sky right now. I want to sleep hard on clean white sheets and throw parties and eat ripe tomatoes and read books so good they make me jump up and down, and I want everyday to make God belly laugh, glad that he gave life to someone who loves the gift.”

—	Shauna Niequist

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it's a chilly weekend here at school.  currently cozied up at the coffee shop soaking up some quality atmosphere, sipping a foamy chai latte.  i survived a week of exams and study overload which proved to be successful (thank goodness).  i feel relieved, relaxed and ready for the week.  movie night tonight and cuddling up with the roomies.  blessed to have so many valentines to celebrate with this year.  so much love from my friends.

happy sunday

xx
kayla

thursday quote

“Why is being a nerd bad? Saying ‘I notice you’re a nerd’ is like saying ‘hey, I notice you’d rather be intelligent than be stupid, that you’d rather be thoughtful than be vapid, that you believe there are things that matter more than the arrest record of Lindsay Lohan. Why is that?’”

—	John Green

tunesday

one of those days where you realize how beautiful life is that it could move you to tears.  warmth of the sun and chill of fresh cool air.  thankful for the simple things.

monday quote

"Don't ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive." - Howard Thurman

buy valentines!

spread the love...it's almost V-Day!  visit ye ole shop here.

thursday quote

“She was looking into my eyes with that way she had of looking that made you wonder whether she really saw out of her own eyes. They would look on and on after every one else’s eyes in the world would have stopped looking.”

—	Ernest Hemingway, The Sun Also Rises

dear february

let love in.  pushing people away has become all too common as i look back now.  meeting wonderful people all the time, but why let the others fade away.  here's to old friends, coffee, flashcards and focus.  raw focus and determination.  word of the month: raw.  natural, wholesome, true, buckled down...real.